I Wish....

Like the star so high above us,
You're dazzlingly beautiful,
Like a diamond in the sky.

Like the deep blue sea,
The depth of your heart is,
Unfathomable to me.

I wish I know how you feel,
What I can do to cheer you up,
What I can do to be with you.

I wish you know how I feel,
You're always in my mind,
But courage is not with me.

For better or worse,
I wish for the end of this torment,
Never again to bug me,
In the depths of my heart.

*****

Feeling so shitty today... Damn it! No more choir even... it's the only thing that cheers me up these days. Feeling so angry, frustrated and depressed right now.

Can you feel both love and anger at a friend at the same time? ARGHHHH!!!!

I miss choir practices... Even though it's tiring after that, at least I'm happy there. The intense practices are so so fun...

Am I lying when I say I'm happy as long she is? Maybe it's true to some extent, but not quite true.

I'm trying to forget!!!!! argh!!!! Why is it so hard? Kinda wish I'm a computer program... delete the 'feelings' data.
while (Leo->feelings!=NULL)
{
Leo->feelings.delete();
}
wouldn't that be easy? *Laughs hysterically

I wish I have courage. I feel so like a gutless chicken right now.

Wanna cry after listening to the recording... Not tears of joy, but real tears of sadness!!!! Do we really sound that bad? Some blame it on the recording. Well, yeah, the coughing sounds can't be helped I guess, but that's not the main reason. I keep hearing split notes here and there. That one couldn't be caused by the recording problem.

I'm gonna breakdown soon. I need a shoulder to lean on to cry. Any volunteers?

At least I'm going back home tmrw. Got a few days to calm down b4 coming back here to be applied with breaking tension again.

*****

One-Winged Angel



Noli manere, manere in memoria. (x2)

Sephiroth, Sephiroth.

Saevam iram, iram et dolorem. (x2)

Sephiroth, Sephiroth.

Ferum terrible, ferum fatum.

Noli manere, manere in memoria. (x2)

Sephiroth, Sephiroth.

Veni, mi fili. Veni, mi fili.
Hic veni, da mihi mortem iterum.
Veni, mi fili. Veni, mi fili.
Hic veni, da mihi...

Noli manere in memoria.
Saevam iram et dolorem.
Ferum terrible fatum.
Ille iterum veniet.

Mi fili, veni, veni, veni, mi fili. (x4)

Mi fili, veni, veni, veni, mi fili.
(Qui mortem invitavis,)
Mi fili, veni, veni, veni, mi fili.
(Poena funesta natus,)
Mi fili, veni, veni, veni, mi fili.
(Noli nomen vocare.)

Mi fili, veni, veni, veni, mi fili.
(Ille iterum veniet.)

Sephiroth, Sephiroth.

Literal English Translations (word for word)

Won't remain, remain in memory. (x2)

Sephiroth, Sephiroth.

Raging anger, anger and misery. (x2)

Sephiroth, Sephiroth.

Fierce terror, fierce fate.

Won't to remain, remain in memory. (x2)

Sephiroth, Sephiroth.

Come, my son. Come, my son.
Come here, give me death once more.
Come, my son. Come, my son.
Come here, give me...

Won't to remain in memory.
Raging anger and misery.
Fierce, terrible fate.
The second advent.

My son, come, come, come, my son. (x4)

My son, come, come, come, my son.
(By death's invitation,)
My son, come, come, come, my son.
(Painful tainted birth,)
My son, come, come, come, my son.
(Won't call the name.)
My son, come, come, come, my son.
(The second advent.)

Sephiroth, Sephiroth.

Sephiroth.